Do you wake up with an uneasy feeling in the pit of your stomach when you’re dealing with so many uncertainties?
All of my uncertainties are beginning to make me feel uneasy. Unfortunately, those feelings are bringing about other feelings, which I am now having to deal with. I still have to fight my corner so that I can live my life my own way, which is something I have always had to do and that is what I feel I am still having to do.
I’m fed up of having to be on my guard all the time. For me, some days are a constant battle. In my life I am still expected to adapt to be a certain way. It really doesn’t matter what I say and I appreciate that we’re all different. We wouldn’t be individual if we weren’t, but we have to be able to live side by side for us all to get on with our lives independently of one another. That’s the way it should be.
I strive to have calm and peace in my life. It’s something I work on daily without stepping on other people’s toes to do it, to belittle or make them feel bad and just as I do that I hope that the same is afforded back to me. It’s so difficult reaching that balance with others.
I want to wake up and feel happy, without having that feeling of dread and unease at what I have to deal with continually. I shall continue to work on it.