It’s always scary when my sensory issues become unpredictable. They make the issues that I deal with much more difficult, because I don’t always know how to deal with them.
I can be okay with one thing one day and then at any time in the early hours of the morning, be woken up with panic in my stomach about that very thing that I seemed to be okay with the day before. I also can’t get back to sleep until I’ve either written the issue down, or found a resolve on the issue and that makes sleeping difficult.
Although I have now come to equate how my sensory issues work, I’ve only come to understand it in the last few months. It is the unpredictable nature of my perceptions and how they work that brings about the most stress.
Because the nature of my perceptions are so unpredictable and I never know how I’m going to feel or cope at any given time, life is enormously difficult for me, not to mention scary, particularly when that feeling comes and I know I have no choice but to deal with it.