One size doesn’t fit all, particularly when it comes to brain damage. Each part of the brain that is damaged is unique to the individual, and that is the main reason why there is no research into cerebral palsy.
It is impossible to ascertain the exact symptoms each individual will have to face, and the medical profession’s brain scans are only able only to provide a general analysis of the likely effects arising from damage to a specific part of the brain.
Unravelling my own symptoms, I know that I have extensive damage to the frontal lobe, which includes the pre-frontal cortex. This controls planning, problem solving, selective attention, behaviour and emotions. Because my emotions are impaired I have to deal with a certain level of immaturity. I also have impairments in attention span and organisational ability, and I struggle with motivation. The damage to this part of my brain is why I missed out on my milestones in childhood.
I have problems with the back of the frontal lobe; that consists of motor areas, which produce and modify movement.
Both the left and right parietal lobes contain the primary sensory cortex that controls sensation, such as touch. An associated area controls judgment of textures, size, weight and shape. I have damage to the right parietal lobe, and I struggle with all these aspects. The damage to the right parietal lobe also means I have spatial awareness difficulties, difficulty naming objects, trouble finding words when I’m speaking, and difficulty in reading and writing.
I struggle to navigate my way through recognition and am unable to feel certain emotions that other people take for granted. It is my intuition that helps me manage daily routines.
But piecing my symptoms together isn’t a problem for me. In a way I welcome it because it allows me to evaluate my experiences. Understanding why I am as I am, is long overdue. What I mind is having been judged, and still being judged for my shortcomings, with a lack of tolerance, empathy, tolerance and understanding from others about what I deal with.