As a follow on, from ‘My Cerebral Palsy Journey blog,’ one size doesn’t fit all, particularly when it comes to brain damage. Each part of the brain that is damaged is unique to the individual and is the main reason there is no research into Cerebral Palsy.
It is impossible to ascertain the exact symptoms for each individual and the medical profession with brain scans are able only to provide a general analysis of the likely symptoms arising from damage to a specific part of the brain. I have gone from never knowing that I had Cerebral Palsy to knowing so late in life, to piecing my difficulties and symptoms together.
I know that I have extensive damage to the frontal lobe, which also consists of the pre-frontal cortex, which controls planning, problem solving, selective attention, behaviour and emotions. Because my emotions are impaired I have a certain immaturity which I deal with.
I also have problems with the back of the frontal lobe and that consists of motor areas, which produce and modify movement. I have impairments in attention span and organisational ability, as well as struggling with motivation.
Although I have brain damage at the right parietal lobe, both the left and right parietal lobes contain the primary sensory cortex, which controls sensation, such as touch with an associated area that controls sensation, including judgment of textures, size, weight and shape, all of which I struggle with.
I also have damage to the right parietal lobe, which means I have spatial awareness difficulties, difficulty naming objects, trouble finding words when I’m writing, writing and difficulty in reading.
I know the part of my brain that deals with emotions is why I missed out on my milestones. I struggle to navigate my way through recognition, unable to feel certain emotions, emotions physically that other people take for granted that they have. My intuition helps me apply my life to daily routines.
Piecing my symptoms together isn’t a problem for me. It’s about time and long overdue that I have an understanding now. That part I don’t mind. What I mind is having been judged and still continually being judged for my shortcomings, with a lack of patience, tolerance, understanding and ignorance from others on what I deal with.