I’m having one of those days playing catch up and waiting for phone calls that seem to be taking forever. Life would be easier if people who said they were going to ring, rang back. It’s just so frustrating. No doubt this afternoon I will have to chase.

I’m probably unconsciously thinking about other issues, but I have no clarity on those. Nothing is standing out, I just know it’s not a happy day.

23 Jun, 2010

8 thoughts on “Venting

  1. Yes, I have had those kind of days and I was miserable all day. I think some people don’t take us serious enough to care. All they care about is giving an answer to a question so they can get on with, whatever they think is important to them and just not care that our problem is that important.

    I used to be a very impatient person, but I’ve learned over time that I can’t be that way. Things will happen when they happen and there’s nothing I can do about it. But some things can be controlled by other people if they cared enough not to make me wait.

    They don’t realize certain things affect our lives differently and how important certain things are to our lives. I would love to be a carefree spirit, but I care what others think and have too many problems to be carefree. I care about others and being a caring person is important in my occupation.

    I’ve known other nurses who are in the career for the money and they couldn’t give a rip about the client and how they feel. That’s just not right, but that’s how some people are.

    One day they will be put in a similar situation and then they will know how it feels. I hope your day gets really better. You’re such a good person Ilana and a good friend. I’m here for you.

    1. I absolutely agree with you Lisa. I am a caring person like you, always have been since I was a little girl and used to care what others thought of me, part of being accepted with CP I guess.

      But as I grew up, I realized that people didn’t always care back in the same way and as I watched my mother struggle with her family I began to think differently about those people in our lives and stopped caring about them because they didn’t care for me.

      Those people who care I about me I care back of course, it’s my way, wouldn’t do it any other way, but I live my life free-spirited and don’t worry about what other people think. They take me as I am.

  2. I am so lucky now to have a new friend. Our relationship is great. Nothing I have ever had before. Sure I have had days when I want to vent.

    I have learned to take a deep breath and think before I speak. I usually vent in private, but occasionally I let my father have it. If I use a certain tone of voice he will comment on it. We have only had one major fight in the last five and a half years and it was a big one, but we worked through it.

    Tomorrow is another day hopefully it will be better for you.

    1. I’m so glad I have the ability to vent. It know it helps us heal emotionally and can prevent illness in the longer term.

      I know tomorrow will be better. I always think positively, it helps. Thank you.

  3. I suppose if I were to wait and let others affect, me it would be my fault; like when I was a young boy and my father would always leave me waiting by the window without a call and just not show up, well it would make me cry and cry.

    Now I’m all grown up, but leave me waiting for even a few moments and it makes me furious that they think that their time is worth more than mine, to a point that I go overboard with it all, but that’s just it isn’t it.

    It’s all about how triggers from our past can lead to venting in the present.

  4. Brian, triggers in the past can lead to venting in the present but you were a child back then. You probably felt let down, angry, betrayed and all the feelings a child feels when their parents behave in the way your father did.

    You can change your behavior now, you don’t have to have those feelings, you can produce different ones. As adults we do have the ability to change the way we behave.

  5. Further to yesterday I really wanted to let my father have it when we were doing some business he called me a Bozo in front of the person who was taking care of us. He is going to pay for that remark. It will come back to haunt him. He will learn never to do that to me again. One thing my father loves is to let me have it when we are in public, or if friends or family members drop by.

    1. Randy you are absolutely right to feel aggrieved with your father’s remark. His comment of you is not about you, it comes from his own issues of himself, just leashed out at you. I truly believe this is how issues and conflicts work.

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