With no emotional support from either parent, I’ve had to rely on myself, so it’s nothing new that I’m still doing it. When I’m around negativity, it reinforces everything that I’ve had to deal with that was negative that I’m pleased to say I’ve managed to turn my back on.
I want just one day where I can just be me, where everything feels calm, where what I have to deal with doesn’t seem like a battle, but for that to work, everyone around me has to be able to deal with their lives in the same way.
When I look back at my life, with everything I’ve been through I know I do more than okay, but some days it doesn’t feel like I do. I still feel as though my life is one long battle.