Growing up, I was never encouraged to think for myself, let alone how to look after myself, I had no control.
It took me many years to understand my situation. I didn’t have control over my decisions, my life, my disability, but I still believed our circumstances can and do change and that we can have control.
My anger was tied into a disability I didn’t know I had. I was too young to make the connections or the link between my physical, mental and emotional problems and my anger. You don’t as a child.
Taking back control in the form of a diagnosis at the age of 46 gave me back control, but it would go on to take me another 10 years to understand everything I needed to know about my mental and emotional difficulties through my cerebral palsy diagnosis. I had very little to work from. When mum got ill, I was able to take back control.
We can have control, but we must take our first steps. By us changing the way we see things, we can change the influences, how we see our problems, that when we do, those problems become within our reach and we can have control.