A late diagnosis of autism doesn’t change what I’ve had to deal with around my neurological issues over the years, but it does mean that how I got to this place late, was never about me, but through others’ interactions and opinions of me.
Knowing the diagnosis allows those close to me to accept my diagnosis and how I present. We need to be able to live our lives, but the nature of Autism may make us a burden to others, but that’s not necessarily how we feel, we’re just being us.
But there are still many misconceptions about the condition. For those of us with Autism, it doesn’t mean we don’t have emotions. In some cases, our feelings are more profound, but different to the average person. Where I can’t physically feel, my inward thoughts, feelings and emotions go into my words and my writing.
It is because I don’t understand how or what I feel that I don’t outwardly show how I feel. The parts of the brain that deals with and controls my emotions is extensively damaged. As a result other people may struggle and become irritated by my outward behaviour.
When it comes to empathy, I have empathy but not in the way others outwardly show or give empathy, but that has got something to do with the fact that my empathy is more practical-problem solving base, due to my black and white thinking.
Because of our black and white thinking, Autism works on a literal platform. As a result of that I don’t understand sarcasm, euphemisms, irony or certain expressions. The humour I can understand depends on how that humour is expressed.
When it comes to Autism, others must want to be patient and understanding. They must want to listen, ask and learn.