I know I have written about acceptance and closure before, but I’m questioning now, whether Cerebral Palsy is something I will be able to accept or bring closure on. Tomorrow I know that may all change depending on where I’m at emotionally.
I tried to close the bedroom blinds yesterday and as I did I fell over the cross-trainer. I misjudged my footing and caught my foot under the radiator cracking my toenail, bruising my foot, ankle and knee badly and knocking my face on the sill.
I know I have to pace myself, consciously make myself aware so that I have balance. I have to remember to pace myself and allow myself the time to work through what I know I can do and stop what I know isn’t working for me, like thinking I can walk normally without having to think about spacial awareness.
I continue to feel that I am being judged and comparisons are being drawn on what others think I should be able to do. As we struggle with what we deal with, it’s easy for others to pass comments. That’s the part I find difficult.