We’re born with a loving, caring and happy soul, but as we experience life, those experiences have a marked effect on our soul. Those experiences will begin to reflect and make up our personalities.
It is through those experiences that bad patterns are formed. The trouble is that we’re often too busy trying to work on our own survival that we don’t look beyond our opinions and attitudes to what lies within us. But we are all capable of changing how we perceive ourselves and other people, regardless of those patterns.
Our attitudes, opinions and approaches build up to what people see on the outside and that is what we show family, friends and the world. What we should be doing is working from the outside in so that what people see on the inside is what they see on the outside.
I was an angry child, living with cerebral palsy and no support, but inside of me there was a soft side that was completely different from my siblings, which others rarely saw. Every now and again that soft side would come out, I’d be sweet and caring and my family would get to see that side of me. Just before my father passed those were his very words.
But it has taken a long time for me to unwrap the sweet caring side. I know I was quite a challenging child, but no one took the time to understand or help me. I’m angry and disappointed they didn’t see that, but after years of working on myself, I have finally learned how to be me.
The CP Diary is testament to all that I am underneath the layers.