My negative feelings tend to come back when I do something that serves as a gentle reminder on what I deal with. Six minutes of exercise is all it took. I’ll work on staying stronger.
I know I am lucky because my Cerebral Palsy is mild, but I know that life for me has been a struggle and that can make me feel negative, angry and frustrated. I’ve had to live my life with no support, then I look again and see my accomplishments around the Diary and see that I’ve actually done okay.
I think the trauma we’ve had to work through as a family has added to that negativity. As I stand back and watch how we cope with trauma, I see my own struggles and that’s inevitable. I have been here so many times before and have come back to tell the tale. I have my health and I have my site.
No one said that dealing with trauma would be easy, but I’m not giving up. It’s time to let go of yesterday’s thoughts, on my own trauma and concentrate on what I have to deal with now.