When I was a little girl I used to struggle with bad thoughts brought about by insecurities, largely brought about by the influence of others.
Now those thoughts have come back through yet more health problems and my struggle to stay well. For a few days now I have had a problem with my eye so I made an appointment to see my doctor this morning. I cannot honestly believe I’m having to work through yet another problem.
It has now been confirmed that I have Blepharitis. The doctor thinks it is caused by a cyst on the eye-lid and not a sty. Having spoken to someone who has had the same condition, the diagnosis doesn’t seem to quite match my symptoms, but I hope my Doctor’s wrong about the cyst, because I don’t want yet more surgery.
Yet another emotional struggle. The positive side is that the infection from my other cyst has gone down so that’s a great help, although I know that in a couple of weeks I will need to have that one removed too. I may put the operation back so that I can deal with one problem at a time.
If I were to look at my problems cumulatively, I would feel so much worse. I know that I’m not alone when it comes to problems, but for now I need to work on taking away those bad thoughts.
I have lived with bad thoughts for many years now, I just don’t seem to be able to take those away.