Everything I write in The CP Diary pays homage to my experiences and emotional wellbeing. I believe there are many aspects to our emotional wellbeing that are linked, and others that will need us to think differently. On the back of my experiences, each blog carries a value and message.
I love to write about the things that mean something to me, like the values placed upon us as individuals and how those values play out in our lives. The old-fashioned values of caring and making a difference are what matter to me, and I will always try to live that way.
When I was a little girl, I lived in a modest house. My parents weren’t rich and as far as I knew they weren’t poor either, but I always had it instilled in me that to buy something, I had to earn it first. I never asked for anything, probably because I knew better, but that wasn’t altogether a bad thing, because it taught me about value, and rather than prize materialistic things, I had to find my happiness elsewhere.
I never fully understood what my parents’ individual values were because nothing was ever really discussed in any great detail. But over the years I knew family was important to Mum, but that she didn’t know how to nurture them. Family need to be nurtured, through a mutual understanding and respect without infringing on each other’s privacy.
I took my own values seriously and dealing with cerebral palsy meant I saw the world from a completely different angle. From an early age, I began to home in on the importance of people and reaching out, in the hope that I would find support. In the end, it became obvious that I needed to be my own emotional support.
I always aimed to please, to find an acceptance that was never there around my disability. My emotional issues were completely overlooked, although some effort was made to help me physically.
Moving forward, looking after my own children and making sure they grow to become happy and confident people is massively important to me. That they make a difference in their lives, however they choose to do so.