Autism and fear

When it comes to informative blogs such as this, I research the facts to make sure that what I know is what the facts recall. The pandemic felt massive, I had no control over how I felt, how I saw it. The principal emotion of autism is fear. It is because I deal with autism that I have fear. There is no getting away from that.

Writing about autism in my book Cerebral Palsy: A Story ‘Finding the Calm After the Storm’ understanding how I think and what my struggles were, adds a different perspective to the book, one that I wouldn’t otherwise have had. Everything I experience is based around autism. Growing up, when it comes to what we deal with, it is important we know. The book needed to be written.

In the book I talk in detail about my experiences with autism. It is because I have autism, that I also deal with other emotions, such as anxiety and bad thoughts that can look and feel like depression. It is because I am unable to ‘feel’ my emotions that I can look at someone and recognise their expressions, but am not able to share their feelings or understand how they really feel.

When I wrote the book, I didn’t have all this information to hand; it has become the reason I continue to write about autism on my blog. Many scientists believe the problem is caused by a weakness in mirror neurons. For me, it is a profound element of autism that continues to present itself.

Living with autism throws a curve ball into my daily life and can make me feel anxious and fearful when situations or issues arise and they begin to feel out of my depth. Covid-19 has made those of us with autism more vulnerable to problems that in other circumstances we would feel we had more control. I know that is true for me.

It has taken me 15 months to accept the virus and to know that I can be in control. Where someone without autism just accepts, okay this is what I have to deal with, I need to get on with it, I have had to find a way for it to feel comfortable, for it to fit.

You can pick a copy of my book Cerebral Palsy ‘A Story’ Finding the Calm After the Storm up today on Amazon http://amzn.to/2qrpiy8 /UK or Amazon http://amzn.to/2WPE2Vy US.

Thank you.


19 Jun, 2021

2 thoughts on “Autism and fear

  1. Living with fear and anxiety must be enormously difficult and distressing for you, made worse when you have had to learn to live in the pandemic.

    I am not surprised it felt massive but I am pleased to read in another blog that you were able to go out a few days ago. Life must have seemed nearer normal for a few hours.

    Your book and blogs are full of inspiration and information for everyone alike, and are even more important, because we are living in such uncertain times. I would recommend people go out and buy it.

    1. Thank you. Yes, everything you say is true. The reality for me is that fear has always been a factor, I just didn’t know or understand.

      I live with daily stress and anxiety, as you say made worse because of the pandemic. But like you, I hope like you, others will also go out and buy my book. It has become my eyes and ears, for others too.

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