Although my disability is responsible for my writing journey, I am humbled by the fact that I have done well in spite of what happened to me.
As I write, going through my past, present and future in my mind, are all happening right now. As the American writer and Nobel Prize Laureate, William Faulkner recalled, “the past is never dead; it’s not even past.” And although it is true, when we are able to change the meaning and the narrative of our past, we will change the narrative of our present and future and that is what I have done.
When we are able to change the narrative of our present and future, those simultaneously change the meaning or narrative of the past. How the story ends are fundamental to how we see our past and how we change our present. Our story will also continually evolve, and change based on the experiences we are having.
In my book: Cerebral Palsy: ‘A Story’ the narrative is based on my understanding of how I got to where I was with my disability, with my life. My blog The CP Diary, although I talk about life, more than I talk about my own life is based on the same principles. Through learning about the ‘whole’ the story I tell myself changes how I see my past.
Even if we’re not a writer, or an author, we can still choose how ‘our story’ ends. Yes, our past is based on our experiences, but if we choose to put a positive slant on our experiences that reside in the past, we will see those experiences as positive. That is what my book does and is exactly how I write.
With 46 years of a life behind me, with mostly negative experiences, there would have been very little to read in the book that was positive, or inspiring. My words would have got lost in too much negativity. We cannot change our past, but the story we tell ourselves can absolutely change.
So, my writing is based on my living in the present and ‘reading between the lines’ on my experiences, and choosing to see those as positive. Yes, I have rewritten my past narrative positively.
My Book, part memoir/part motivational guide, is available to buy on Amazon http://amzn.to/2qrpiy8 /UK or Amazon http://amzn.to/2WPE2Vy US, and in all good book stores, including Waterstones and Salts Mill.