Today is the publication day of my second book , ‘Spirituality, healing and Me’, marking both the end of a long personal journey and the beginning of another.
Living in the shadows, not knowing I had a disability and struggling through my childhood with a disability, makes what I have achieved bitter/sweet.
No one can erase the memories of a life lived, particularly where a disability and struggles ensue, but we can make our lives better by turning our lives around in a way that we begin to understand and benefit from our experiences positively.
Not knowing what my mental and emotional struggles were growing up, those times were enormously difficult. Although it has taken many years for me to seek validation, I now have validation for my writing and I couldn’t be happier. Validation doesn’t have to be in the traditional sense, validation is validation.
Through spirit validation, mum knows what I write is true and is with me often as I write. She is aware of what I have achieved since she passed 15 years ago, and is happy for me. She knows she could have done so much more for me, if she had just taken the time to stop, listen and recognise what I needed.
Mum knows more should have been done to bring me understanding, comfort and love with a disability. Through my work she sees that now and is happy for me. My father although not in the same heart space, is keen to acknowledge my achievements. My books aren’t ‘kiss ‘n’ tell,’ mum knows that what I write, I write from the heart and it’s all true.
Through my courage, my writing has healed mum. Through my courage and my words, she is healed in spirit. Through my own resolution, mum also has resolution, soon for my father too. It’s comforting knowing loved ones are never far away.
Mum is happy and is watching me as she continues to read my words. She knows my writing helps me place my thoughts and feelings, which means they are no longer mental struggles. On publication of my second book, and at the same time, mum is healed and I now have closure on my experiences. We have come through our lives on both sides separately, together.
Growing up with a disability in the community was difficult, because I was different. Anyone growing up with a disability, can find it hard to find acceptance. Mum had a presence and struggled this side of life. I am sure those who knew her will now take comfort knowing she is healed, that my words have allowed her to heal.
Today is Publication Day for ‘Spirituality, Healing and Me,’ and as I look across at the hearth, I can see Cerebral Palsy: A Story ‘Finding the Calm After the Storm’ and ‘Spirituality, Healing and Me,’ staring back at me and I couldn’t be prouder of my parents, for their own healing.
If you would like to see how my healing journey can help you too, my book is available through Amazon UK, just follow the link https://amzn.to/3joXymB – or you can buy a copy through The Book Depository for free international postage https://bit.ly/2X5ae9H