Why I Wrote My Book

An author might tell you that writing a personal book  isn’t easy. It’s not easy to describe how you feel and you’re never sure how what you write will be received.

As a small child, I never woke up and said when I’m older, I shall write about my difficulties. My only concern was putting a name to something I didn’t know I had. Going to the grave without knowing, was always a distinct possibility. Growing up, that thought never left me.

At the point of diagnosis and once I started blogging, I began to realise that no matter how much I tried to find out about my disability, without knowing fully why I presented the way I did, I would be no nearer to understanding ‘me,’ and I needed understanding.

I wrote my book so that I could know about me. If you understand how the universe works, it didn’t block me; instead it paved the way for me to write. My book was to be a self-contained safe place, that allowed me to talk about what I later found out to be a disability, about my experiences, so that I could come to terms with my life.

It is NOT a disability book. The first two chapters are about my disability. When you hear the term ‘Cerebral Palsy,’ it’s easy to think wheel chair. Your first thought may be, I don’t want to read or hear bad news about someone’s life with a disability, but my story is different.

Part memoir, part motivational guide, Cerebral Palsy: ‘A Story’ is my open and honest journey. It is heartfelt. The book is centred around not knowing about my disability. My thoughts and feelings growing up in the dark not knowing; my non-understanding, needing to understand, wanting to understand.

My book gives clarity, understanding and closure. It is a book of courage, a book of hope. It brings understanding, not only to my experiences and my life, but also understanding for those who kindly choose to read it.

As it has changed my life, it can positively change your life too; by giving you a different way to perceive and think. It is ‘A perfect read for Covid-19’ @heatherboisseau @RedDoorBooks

My Book, part memoir/part motivational guide, is available to buy on Amazon http://amzn.to/2qrpiy8 /UK or Amazon http://amzn.to/2WPE2Vy US, and in all good book stores, including Waterstones and Salts Mill.

Thank you.

18 Feb, 2021

4 thoughts on “Why I Wrote My Book

  1. It has been incredibly difficult for me to put pen to paper. Right at this point, I do have a lot of understanding, but I’m not expecting closure seeing as both of my parents have already passed.

    They blamed everything that happened on each other, and refused to apologize so that isn’t going to happen. I should take the time to write my own book, but I’m not really sure of how to overcome that hurdle.

    A leap of faith would be good. Now through the pandemic would also be a good time to do it.

    1. Thanks Randy. Writing isn’t always easy. Being able to remember your thoughts in the way they happened and in the order they happened isn’t always easy, but making a start is always the first step.

      I was thinking about my journey this morning. Your parents might have passed and therefore you haven’t heard anything from them, but if you could work on universal truths, you wouldn’t need your parents to corroborate.

      Writing about your truths and from the heart is a good place to start. It’s not easy knowing how your truths will be received, but it’s not about that they’re your truths, they’re not a discussion point.

      Tell your parents how you really feel and they will sit up and listen.

  2. It’s not always easy writing about personal experiences, in your case about a disability you didn’t know you had.

    In your case, you had good reason to write a book, it was the only way you would know about your disability, for you to bring closure and it’s what you have done. It is a book, which has not only helped you on your journey of self-discovery, but it is also helping others too.

    When it comes to personal writing, there will always be people who have an opinion, but no one has the right to have an opinion or comment.

    Having read your book, it should be on everyone’s bookshelf.

    1. Thank you. I hope my book will be on everyone’s shelf! I concur with your comment. Yes, my experiences growing up not knowing, has been enormously difficult.

      I hope that if comments are being made, those comments will be made after the book has been read and not comments based on the fact that I wrote the book. It’s not a ‘kiss ‘n’ tell’ book. It’s a book that is based on ‘universal truths.’ There are no opinions, comments or blame attached to the book.

      What the book allows me to do is understand my disability, so that I can come to terms and bring closure for the first time. Through readings, mum is happy to tag along with me, and that heartens me.

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