I’m feeling despondent today and as a result I'm beginning to doubt myself, but I know that I have no reason to. I act on my intuition and use that as my guide to make any decisions I have to make.

Any emails I send out, phone calls I have to make, they're all done through my intuition. My brain doesn't work. The decisions I have had to make recently are right, but they have put me in a slightly different place to where I was.

It's a setback. Setbacks can make me doubt myself, even if I initially have no doubts over my decision making. Where decisions have been out of my control, setbacks have been inevitable. It is because I have more to deal with that I am emotionally in a different place again.

Uncertainties make me doubt myself. When I look back on the last few days, I believe my decisions were right for me. I need to work on my confidence a little more.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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6 comments on “Self-doubt”

  1. We do what we feel is right for us. That's what you need to do. Not everybody is the same and we all deal with things differently.

    What is right for one, may not be right for another. Our spiritual beliefs are different also. What one person believes in isn't always what the other person believes in.

    We just have to do what is right for us and I believe you are doing just that, what is right for you. Stay with the path you've chosen.

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  2. I've spent a good part of my life doubting myself, which is something I'm trying to work on changing.

    It has been a very difficult obstacle to overcome, although I think I have made quite a bit of progress over the past few years.

    I'm hoping and praying that it is something that I will eventually be able to at eliminate from my life.

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    1. Working on change is good Randy. I am pleased you feel you are making headway; even a little bit of headway goes a long way.

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  3. Doubting oneself every now and again is completely normal.

    You have a strong sense of self-belief that will pull you through these hard times.

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    1. I agree with you.

      I know my beliefs will pull me through. I just wish it could be sooner rather than later. That time seems a very long way off right now.

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