Losing my twin in December 2022, I am struggling, I'm not going to lie, but I am also comforted knowing she is okay, because I have seen the signs. I need to get myself physically well again. The trauma of watching her struggle before losing her, has changed the status on my health.

Writing my truth

I write my truth. My twin is around me. True to form posting my blog to Tumblr yesterday, inserting the header as I usually do, the header moved from the top to the bottom of the page.

Then adding the blog to one of my social media accounts, my twin was messing with the pagination. I usually add headers to my blogs and then paragraph, so what I write is neatly set out. All the headers, were intact but three of the paragraphs had moved on to the same line as the headers.

Loved ones connect

For anyone who is in doubt about how our loved ones connect, don’t be. The connections are there, we have to open to their energy. The bond between my twin and I is stronger than ever. While it’s hard and raw to know my journey carries on without her, I am comforted to know her support is there as she watches over me.

I'd love to hear from any twins out there who share the same sentiments about being a twin.  

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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