Karma is often thought of as something immediate or controllable, but in reality it unfolds in its own time. Its timing is immaterial, because it is not something we can initiate or prevent. On our part, we must wait for it. It is not for us to decide when or how it arrives.

There is, however, a positive side to karma. It often presents itself in subtle ways, sometimes through something that is said – something we hear but do not consciously acknowledge at the time. These moments can stay with us, working beneath the surface, and later help us to anticipate or understand an outcome we have been struggling with. In this way, karma can bring resolution where we once thought none was possible.

I experienced this personally when my mum spoke about my birth. Although I didn't fully recognise its significance at the time, it changed my thinking unconsciously. Over time, I felt compelled to explore it further – eventually it became an important part of how I understood my disability. Karma doesn't always come neatly packaged. It doesn't also arrive as a clear or immediate event, but it can unfold gradually, shaping our awareness.

Understanding karma is important, not so that we can control it, but so that we can be ready when it presents itself. It does not remain available indefinitely, and if we are not aware, we may miss it.

Many of us live with karmic debt. I have lived with karmic debt. The experiences I have endured over the years have led me to examine my own beliefs, particularly those relating to separation, and to confront the emotions that arose from them.

This process of reflection has been difficult.

The CP Diary forms part of my karmic journey. Through writing, I am able to explore my experiences more deeply. This helps me to begin resolving them and contributes to a sense of healing. In this way, my writing is not separate from my karmic journey, but an integral part of it.

Karma presents itself when it is able to serve. It does not come simply because we want it to, but when the conditions allow for it to be meaningful. However, there are situations where it appears that karma is delayed or even absent. When the wrong people are protected, it can feel as though karma plays second fiddle, and in some cases, it may seem as though it's never served. It waits in the wings.

Despite this, karma is not something we can measure purely by external outcomes. Its movement is not always visible, and it doesn't always align with our expectations of fairness. Like the ebb and flow, it continues in its own rhythm, regardless of how it appears on the surface.