The social awkwardness of autism is the most difficult to deal with. Growing up, I didn’t know autism was responsible for my mental and emotional disabilities. Although I have mild autism and I’m not high functioning, anyone with autism will struggle to interact on a level that is normal.

Autism

Autism is a mental and social disorder which means on the autism spectrum you’re not only socially isolated, but you also demonstrate a social interaction that can’t always be explained by other factors, including short attention span, defiance and shyness. Those who are particularly high functioning, can add aggressive behaviour to that list.

My Mental and Emotional Struggles

When I think about my mental and emotional struggles as a child, I can see autism. Whilst children can be inflexible, detached, and socially withdrawn and not have autism, there were small things that made me think I was different, particularly around my sensory issues and my difficulties with just being able to grasp things.

My Research 

As I began to research into my physical disability, my research concludes that my sensory issues do fit cerebral palsy and autism. My emotional responses are cerebral palsy and my other sensory responses like touch, smell and sight are autism related.  It’s taken years of research trying to piece my disability and symptoms together. I am particularly good at remembering conversations. I can't remember what I did yesterday, but my long-term memory is really good.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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2 comments on “Autism, a Social Awkwardness”

  1. I was able to see how autism presented itself through dealing with my niece. She did seem to have a very hard time with social awkwardness and didn't spend a lot of time with other children.

    They seemed to have such a hard time with understanding her, but I usually figured out what was going on with her, since we connected on a different level.

    It was probably the same reason I was able to easily connect with my daughter and deal with her Cerebral Palsy issues while her Mother really struggled. It would be great if more people could be patient and tolerant.

    1. Thanks Randy. Yes, your last sentence rings true and you're right. Autism is a mental and emotional disability.

      We need to have people who are patient and tolerant with us. You have proved this is all it takes to help someone with autism.

      Having understanding helps, but even where you don't have understanding, tolerance goes a long way to at least help people like me know they care.

      Over the years it's not something I've been a privy to. I cared too much where others didn't care about me. If I had my time again I would do things differently.

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