When it comes to informative blogs, I research to make sure that what I know is what the facts recall. With autism, the virus was overwhelming, I had no control over how I felt. I was continually being sucked into the fear element of the virus.
Autism and Fear
It is because I have autism that I live with anxiety and fear. Writing about autism in my book, Cerebral Palsy: A Story ‘Finding the Calm After the Storm,' and writing about my struggles, adds a different perspective, to one that I wouldn’t have had otherwise.
Everything I experience is based around autism. It is important to know what we deal with, It is because I have autism, that I also deal with anxiety and bad thoughts that can look and feel like depression.
It is also because I am unable to ‘feel’ my emotions that I can look at someone and recognise their expressions, but am not able to share their feelings or understand how they feel.
It has become the reason I continue to write about autism on my blog. Many scientists believe autism is caused by a weakness in mirror neurons. For me, it is a profound element that continues to get in the way of every day life.
The Autism curve-ball
Living with autism throws a curve ball into my daily routine and can make me feel anxious and fearful when situations arise and they begin to feel out of my depth. Covid-19 has made people like me with a mental disability, more vulnerable to problems that in other circumstances we would have a little more control over.
It has taken me 15 months to get my head around the virus. Where someone without a mental disability accepts they need to get on with it, I have to find a way to normalise it, for it to feel comfortable.
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Living with fear and anxiety must be enormously difficult and distressing for you, made worse when you have had to learn to live in the pandemic.
I am not surprised it felt massive but I am pleased to read in another blog that you were able to go out a few days ago. Life must have seemed nearer normal for a few hours.
Your book and blogs are full of inspiration and information for everyone alike, and are even more important, because we are living in such uncertain times. I would recommend people go out and buy it.
Thank you. Yes, everything you say is true. The reality for me is that fear has always been a factor, I just didn't know or understand.
I live with daily stress and anxiety, as you say made worse because of the pandemic. But like you, I hope like you, others will also go out and buy my book. It has become my eyes and ears, for others too.