More things for me to deal with

Date 20 April 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
I’m again having my fair share of up and down days. One or two things are going on which I am dealing with that are bringing many thoughts into my mind, of where I’m at. The other evening whilst getting ready for bed, I noticed when I looked in the…
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Keratosis Pilaris

Date 14 April 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
Amongst my many ailments, I also suffer with facial Keratosis Pilaris, which I have had for about 16 years now that I believe is hereditary. My father has a different form of Keratosis. I first noticed I had a problem many years ago, whenever I travelled abroad. As soon as…
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Seeing the need for change

Date 10 April 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
My thoughts bring me on to a different path today, where I can see the bigger picture of my life, situations and issues that I’ve had to deal with. I know which situations I can change; and which issues I need to change, but I also know that to change…
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Channeling my thoughts

Date 9 April 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
Today's blog may seem like a bit of a repeat and I'm sorry if it is, but this is where I’m at again. I’m slowly coming out of my reflux health problems. I do have okay days though, where I’m in control of my thoughts and feelings. Those are my…
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Dealing with reflux again

Date 5 April 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
Today I find myself back at this place again; the place where I am dealing with illness. Thankfully, I am not here all the time; but it’s becoming tiresome having to deal with it when it comes. I can change the stress but must continue to work on that part…
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Intimidation

Date 4 April 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
It’s not always obvious to us that the people in our lives may be intimidating and controlling. For those of us who deal with intimidation, it can be a nightmare because we unwittingly allow others to intimidate us without us realising. Irrational thinking is sometimes the reason we allow others…
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How to take control

Date 31 March 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
Although it’s not easy dealing with people who have controlling tendencies, part of their need for control is tied into self-esteem issues. It’s important for our own mental health ...
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Reminders of my CP

Date 28 March 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
My weekend was filled with thoughts that I feel I need to blog out. Seeing someone’s reflection in the mirror yesterday took me back to my struggling, looking at my own reflection in the mirror, whilst growing up. Over the years, I have challenged myself to look in the mirror…
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More on guilt

Date 26 March 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
Never trust guilt, instead act on it. The hardest thing to do is apologise if we do something wrong. I believe we distinctively know when we’ve done something wrong, because we begin to feel bad. Taking responsibility and admitting we’re wrong is different to holding on to someone else’s guilt.…
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Guilt

Date 25 March 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
Guilt is a burden many of us carry by the trunk load, either because of something someone else has done to us, or something we’ve done as a consequence of someone else. It’s in our subconscious, something we’re drawn to, which is why it’s difficult to let it go. But…
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My guilty feelings

Date 24 March 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
I believe that no matter how parents raise their children, they will never get it right one hundred per cent. But what about those of us who continue to carry guilt over the actions of our parents? I carried guilt for not persevering in school when I found it extremely…
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Support & parenting

Date 20 March 2011
Author Ilana Estelle
Today my mood seems to have gone downhill. I know what’s triggered the problem but cannot seem to resolve it. It’s because I have never had the opportunities to go out into the world and experience for myself what my children are now benefiting from. That just wasn’t my life.…
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