With a disability I want to be able to go out like everyone else without the worry of being vulnerable. The pandemic has changed everything. It has changed all of our lives.

Losing my twin in December 2022, has also changed things for me, because I am navigating my life without her and in the pandemic. Through the trauma of losing her, I now have Eagle Syndrome.

A Cerebral Palsy diagnosis

Reflecting, I am lucky to have my cerebral palsy diagnosis, because that ultimately changed my thinking. But I also know I had to be instrumental in how I saw my life. Change doesn’t happen unless we choose to change, to change the way we see ourselves, to change the way we see others and to change the way we see our lives.

We need to be open to change

The more we resist change the more nothing will or can change. We need to be open to change, to want to move from where we are, to understand the need to be proactive and working on finding a way through.

Climate and Environmental change

Climate and environmental changes are taking place in front of our very eyes. It's a scary place, but knowing what is happening, the world is changed and we are part of that should be our reason for change. It needs to be our turning point.

Change can happen

Change can happen, we have to want to change our thinking. Change can also come into our lives through a death, or through chance. Something happens that you didn’t anticipate or expect, and you need to make a decision; you need to change. My twin's death and my illness, has culminated in my need to change. I'm falling.

We also have a choice not to change. One thing is for sure, we are surrounded by change, and it is having an impact on us and our lives. Therefore we need to change.  

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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