In March 2009, after years of not knowing about a disability I was born with, I was finally diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy.

I needed to know about my disability, a starting point on my journey. Shortly after my diagnosis I went to see a Neurologist who agreed to write to the hospital where I was born, to see if there were any facts or information that would tell me more.

A Stroke at birth

I know that I had a stroke. My neurologist thinks the stroke happened whilst I was being born. My twin was born 57 minutes before me, she also weighed less than me at birth, which makes it more plausible that I was normal until my birth.

My neurologist also thinks that once my twin had been delivered, blood from the placenta must have started to separate whilst I was still inside, the blood will have clotted and gone back through the placenta into the brain, causing me to have a stroke.

I have done as much as I can for now. It makes sense and is a step closer for me to know about my disability. I have become more accepting of it, now that I know a little more about it.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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6 comments on “I've done as much as I can”

  1. Wow, this is interesting to know, but at the same time must be frustrating to you. A stroke whilst being born, twins are definitely a high risk pregnancy (didn't know how high risk it was until I read your blog).

    I hope you get your answers soon. Keep up the good fight.

  2. After reading your post 'I've done as much as I can,' I am inspired to educate myself on Cerebral Palsy.

    I find it spiritually and humanly awesome, that while you endure the physical and mental challenges of Cerebral Palsy, you continue to help others with so much vigor.

    I love to see the good in people like you. Thank you.

    1. You're so welcome Tim. I think it's inspiring and such a lovely gesture that you want to learn more about Cerebral Palsy. Usually we are so wrapped in our own lives we don't even think about what others deal with.

      The fact that you are inspired to find out more is enough for me.

  3. Even though I was given no answer yesterday about my condition during my Neurology appointment, I'll still post comments here.

    I'm very disappointed but it sure isn't the end of the world and I'll have to seek a diagnosis through a different doctor. I'm not sure why these doctors only half way help, then tell us they don't know what's wrong when it's clear.

    1. Thanks Bonnie. I feel for you having come so far to find out what it is you deal with, then have your diagnosis cut short.

      I know that when I went for my Neurology appointment 7 years ago, the doctor I saw didn't specialise in Cerebral Palsy, but going on the scan he could clearly see the extent of my brain damaged and surmised from my symptoms that it was clear I had Cerebral Palsy.

      When there is more confusion around a diagnosis, doctors do tend to pull rank, but with a little more perseverance from you and your family with a different doctor, I am sure you'll get your diagnosis.

      It might be helpful you sourcing your medical notes from when you were a child. You might find something that can help you. Although I don't have a lot of my medical notes, what I do have dates back to when I was 2.

      Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. My site isn't just about Cerebral Palsy. I'm sure you have more to contribute. Stay strong.

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