Ageing with Cerebral Palsy doesn't please me. I have a pit in the stomach feeling every time I think about it.

On the whole it's okay

On the whole I feel I do okay, but it’s stumbling across everything for the first time and having to deal with those issues that I find irritating. It's not just that what I deal with is for life, but as I age I have been told as my brain slows down, so will my cerebral palsy.

Cerebral Palsy: My physical and mental health

On our part, we must accept that our brain doesn’t work properly and that is beginning to have a knock on effect on my physical and mental health too. When someone with cerebral palsy is totally cross-wired, nothing works.

A wired incorrectly plug

A plug that is wired incorrectly can never work. Today I couldn’t physically motivate myself and although it’s not a regular occurrence, it is getting harder to be able to do things on a morning.

Brain fatigue and multi-tasking issues

I used to get myself up and out for 8 am on a morning, now I am lucky to be up and out by 10:30 am. It's a combination of brain fatigue and multitasking that I struggle with. When I have too much to think about, my brain switches off. I hate the feeling it brings when I have no motivation to help me get through the day.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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