Reaching the end of 2015, I cannot believe yet another year has passed so quickly. Apart from the continuation of The CP Diary, which I feel has been enormously successful, my other achievement is my coming to understand part of my Cerebral Palsy symptoms after all these years.
It’s been a pain staking exercise from start to finish, trying to pin point and simultaneously understand what my struggles have been. Working through my MRI scan in detail has allowed me to piece more together, which has been a massive revelation for me.
Whilst I cannot change never having known to this point, I now know and that matters. I need this to be a positive turning point in my life. I hope I have done enough to put some of this behind me, because it's not one that's easily revisited. I know because I have revisited it so many times before.
Yes, it is hard to believe that another year has flown by! Mine has also been filled with introspection on what my issues really are and what I have to do to be able to deal with them.
I;m having to look at one in particular that is very unpleasant that I have avoided for most of my life. I haven't wanted to deal with it but if I don't it will only get worse for me and will doom any chance of a normal relationship in the future!
I'm just hoping to make 2016 at least a decent year,if not a lot better than most of the previous ones.
Thanks Randy. Yes things don't tend to go away until we deal with them. I find introspection quite helpful, but it's not always easy, particularly if it's something that needs sorting out that we've been dealing with for a while.
I hope you manage to sort out what it is that needs sorting out. Thanks for your support this year and that you have a better year in 2016.
I will release a huge sigh when I finally see 2015 in the rear view mirror.
It was a year in which I was oblivious to my own ignorance about everything from relationships, to Government sanctioned oppression. In 2015, the world seemed sub-human in its desire to sabotage itself and the love of everything evil was the order of the day.
Ironically though, this was a year that humbled me and restored my eyes to see my capacity to love and strengthened me to deal with anything coming my way.
I want to acknowledge that The CP Diary has comforted me through some very challenging times, with its compassion, intelligence and moral mission. I am extremely grateful for The CP Diary's existence.
Thanks for the lovely compliment Tim. Yes 2015 has been one of the world's darkest years. I quite agree. I hope we can turn a corner in 2016.
From your responses over the year, I'm not sure I'd say you were oblivious to your own ignorance! I personally see and believe the opposite to be true, but it's very rare we see that in ourselves.
I believe it's only when we look back we see that perhaps we could have done things differently. Experience shows us that if we learn to look hard enough.