Every now and again Cerebral Palsy comes back into the equation. Having had a pedicure yesterday and me having a foot-drop, it brought about more discussions about my condition.

I wasn’t unhappy to have one, I’ve moved on from hiding my cerebral palsy, but it did bring back other thoughts on the lack of support and emotional neglect whilst growing up with the condition.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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6 comments on “Yesterday's reminder”

  1. Ilana you are brave. 🙂

    I admire your strength and just look at your life. You have a husband and kids; two things that I always thought I couldn't have due to my CP.

    Thank you for 'making it possible' for me and please keep enjoying what life brings you... every little things are worth living.

    1. Thanks Maylis and you're very welcome.

      We're all born for someone regardless of what we deal with; that is my belief. It just takes the right person to see beyond the disability. Don't give up on finding someone.

      You are absolutely right about my family, I love them all and am lucky to have such a special family. Emotionally though, I still have to deal with my past on my own. The reminders are around me but unfortunately that's something my family cannot help me with.

      Generally I am pretty upbeat about it, but every now and again something comes back to remind me.

  2. You've come a long way in just the last couple of years. Don't give up on all you have accomplished. I find strength in you. You're an inspiration for all who deal with CP and other things.

    I think dealing with family issues affects most of us who have physical or mental problems, whether we were over protected or under protected.

    How we deal with it is the main thing and I think you've dealt with your issues very well. Keep up the strength.

    1. I hear ya! From your response Mat you seem okay and fairly upbeat about those memories.

      It's the memories that linger and resurface again and again that can harm us emotionally, if we don't deal with them. This memory for me keeps coming back. I seem to have a bigger problem with it, than I thought.

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