When I was a little girl I used to struggle with bad thoughts. Now those thoughts have come back through yet more health problems and I am struggling to stay well.

For a few days now I have had a problem with my eye. It has now been confirmed that I have Blepharitis. The doctor thinks it's caused by a cyst on the eye-lid.

Having spoken to someone who has had the same condition, the diagnosis doesn’t seem to quite match my symptoms, but I hope my doctor is wrong about the cyst, because I don’t want yet more surgery.

The positive side is that the infection from my other cyst has gone down, although I know in a couple of weeks I will probably need to have that one removed too.

I need to work on taking my bad thoughts away. I have lived with bad thoughts for many years now, I just don't seem to be able to shake it off, particularly when I have other negative things to deal with.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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4 comments on “Yet more problems”

  1. I am so so sorry you're having these problems. I have you in my thoughts daily.

    I have been there with several things happening all at once and it made me feel very insecure. I'm hoping and praying that things take a big turn for the better for you soon.

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    2. Thanks Bill. I totally understand you. Hope you're doing okay now.

      I'm strong, but fed up and know it will pass. It's just a matter of time. I need to ride with this. Thank you so much for posting.

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  2. I've had my share of health problems. They always seem to last forever. "When it rains... it pours."

    You will overcome them, you are a strong woman.

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