Today part of me has been positive, the other part of me has been swaying towards the not so positive. As much as I try it’s not always easy to stay focused and positive all the time.

I think it comes with the territory. Emotionally whether I like it or not, I am affected by what goes on around me. It’s hard not to have new thoughts and feelings that need dealing with. I would like to have more clarity.

I want to think about me for a change. I want to have peace around me without having to work at finding it. Although my childhood days are gone, there isn’t a day goes by where I’m not having to work on bringing calm into my life.

Although I had some calm in my childhood, my other memories outweigh my memories of calm. I'm still working on calm now.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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4 comments on “Memories of Calm”

  1. I know how you feel. I think we all have good and bad periods and the difficult times make it hard to focus and move forward positively.

    You have shown through this site all the skills to do that and you certainly deserve the calm.

    I have every confidence in you.

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