I am the same underneath, but because I deal with a disability, my story is different. I act differently because I deal with a mental disability and that impacts how I am able to communicate with others. Any disability is difficult, even more so when the disability you deal with is invisible.
I don't look autistic
I don’t look disabled but I am autistic, and that is a disability in itself. Even as a small child, I was aware I was different. I had convinced myself I must be wrong because no one said anything. Using my gut instinct, even as a child I was already working things out.
I feel 'no different'
Many years on I still feel no different about how I got here. I will get through it, but will probably not get over it fully. A lot of years have passed. There are too many skeletons in the closet, none of which I had control over. That is part of the problem. Anyone with a disability is the same underneath.
I had an overwhelming sense of humility reading this blog - you endured your pain to bring hope, positivity and healing to others.
Yes, I am more than happy to leave your response with you. Thank you...
When you were born you were ready to face your challenges. I love the way you've handled your disappointment and rage.
Thanks Tim. A complete contrast to my early years. As a small child I was ready and wanting to know. Countless hospital visits still didn't explain why.
I had to wait for my circumstances to change. I had been ready for that day since I was a little girl. Away from my anger as a child, as the adult I was able to change some of that.
Although I had changed prior to starting my website and finding out about cerebral palsy, my website and penning pen to paper, my blog has allowed me to talk about how I was able to handle my disappointment and rage.
I found another way through that worked, it not only changed me, but gave me the answers I was looking for in a conciliatory way that has brought understanding for everyone concerned.
As I have had to reconcile my experiences around my disability, now would be a good time for them to reconcile.