Something inspirational:
"Did I offer peace today? Did I bring a smile to someone's face? Did I say words of healing? Did I let go of my anger and resentment? Did I forgive? Did I love? These are the real questions. I must trust that the little bit of love that I sow now will bear many fruits, here in this world and the life to come."
HENRI NOUWEN
I have been trying to be this way over the past few months after I realized that I was wasting far too much time trying to help people who didn't appreciate my efforts in the slightest.
This was proven, after I forced myself to take a 5,000 mile round trip to rescue my daughter and was stabbed in the back for my efforts.
I don't regret what I did for her since it was the right thing to do, but she is so naive that she believed other people who were telling her why they thought that I did it and I know in my heart that it had nothing to do with controlling her life or the money she receives because of her disability.
I'm not so much angry with her, but with the person I made the mistake of trusting who I assumed was on my side. It also proved to me that I'm living with someone who is ultimately very petty and vindictive, which isn't me at all, since I know that those plans to get back at those people will always backfire.
It's what they say about using black magic ,where the harm you wish on others comes back on you threefold. I'm not a believer in karma, seeing as if people got what they deserved, I would probably be rotting in a jail or a mental institution right now.
In the end, I am still trying to be a nice guy, even though nice guys, do very often tend to finish last in the kind of world we live in today.
The reality is that the time I do have left is running out and at best, I may have a good 15-20 years before I end up with dementia, like both of my parents, so I absolutely need to make the best of it.
I'm way too exhausted to continue dealing with so much negative energy when I know I really don't have to.
You're a good guy Randy, karma wouldn't wish that on you. Karma and the universe know your life. It takes a judgment call not only on your deeds but your inner thoughts too. It will know you struggle.
You're kind, and a good person. Karma understands us more than we understand ourselves. Karma takes a judgment call on our complete thinking, not just the thoughts we have access to. That is how karma works.
You do good things Randy and that's the point. Your life has led you to this. Karma isn't always about getting something bad back.
Awe-inspiring quote! It moved the nature in me.
Thank you Ilana.
Thanks Tim. Yes it is. There are so many things we need to think about, food for thought. So many things we need that will make us better.
Anything 'awe-inspiring' and thank you, which helps us see each other and the world differently.