Life's journey

Date 28 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
Any great journey starts with one small step. As a child, I wasn’t aware life was a journey. I never stopped to question my life, or why I had mental, emotional or physical difficulties, or what that bigger picture was. All I knew was that physically it was something I…
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Our intuitive guide

Date 26 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
I’m not sure as a child I understood what intuition was, but now I know I use it as my guide. As a child with intuition, I would have had the chance to focus, without continually looking back on non-achievements negatively. Intuition keeps our lives centred, so that we can…
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My focus

Date 25 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
My writing is my focus, intuitively it helps brings clarity. It helps me to understand my life, where I had no understanding and so that I am able to stay focused. They help me remain calm in a not so calm world. I find it helpful when I can read…
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A quiet mind

Date 22 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
As a child, I would often revert inwards. I was good at it, but I didn’t understand why. In a way it saved on the frustrations, as I had a lot of quiet time on my own. I have learned it is more important to let go of the issues…
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Taking issue

Date 20 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
I’m used to spending my life solving problems, it’s the way I find peace. Dealing with a disability means I am different and means others are working with someone with difference. External influences (how others interact with me) is impacting how I deal with certain situations. It creates anxiety where…
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Paralympians

Date 17 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
It is because my cerebral palsy is so mild that I have never considered myself disabled, but having cerebral palsy and watching the opening ceremony of the Paralympics, brought about strong feelings in me I didn’t know I had. Putting 'Disability' on the Map Watching it for the first time,…
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My recent thoughts

Date 16 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
Dealing with a terminal illness is difficult, but it becomes even more difficult when the cancer advances and it begins to affect the appetite. I’m not sure at what point my father lost his appetite, as everything seems a massive blur right now. Changes in appetite are common with cancer…
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Feeling alone

Date 14 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
Being alone with our thoughts can bring about peaceful moments in-between those moments where we feel isolated and alone. Solitude can be graceful and with the right tools, it’s something we can overcome. As long as people enjoy and want to be in their own company, they’ll never have a…
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Picking fights

Date 12 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
I am sure we’ve all had our days where if someone so much as glances at us in the wrong way, we’ll turn and pick a fight, be less than gracious or unreasonable on comments that are probably completely reasonable. Sound familiar? We also usually know when we’re to blame…
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How others see us

Date 11 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
I’ve often wondered why people interpret the way they see us completely differently, to the way we see ourselves. Unfortunately, other people will not always share the same views of us, mainly because their interpretations of us will be analysed through their own perceptions, attitudes and personal beliefs, not from…
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Comparisons

Date 9 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
I’ve never been one to look over my shoulder, what other people have is fine by me. But on my not so good days while I’ve been dealing with Cerebral Palsy, a momentarily lapse and I find myself glancing at others, wishing my life didn’t include having to deal with…
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About resolve

Date 8 September 2012
Author Ilana Estelle
It’s not surprising that I’ve had another tough summer. With a second operation now behind us and back in our usual university and school routines, I am beginning to feel better. I’ve worked tirelessly concentrating on my resolve once more to bring about a more positive outcome and I feel…
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