Uncertain times

Date 29 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
I should have felt elated having completed 1,000 blogs. Yesterday was a milestone for me, but it didn’t really feel like one. There seems to be an undercurrent pulling me in different directions to where I want to go, with lots of uncertainty still around me. More now than ever…
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Inevitability of change

Date 26 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
We tend to initiate certain changes for ourselves, which we’re okay with, but often when change is imposed on us through circumstances and other people, we’re not so okay. Exciting changes and apprehension Certain changes like moving to a new house, going back to school or moving jobs are exciting…
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What could have been

Date 24 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
When I look at my father I see a life not lived and am saddened that he never gave me the opportunities to aspire to be anything. What makes this serve as a gentle reminder, is that in 9 months time Claudia starts her new life at university. As I…
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Confidence and Ability

Date 23 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
As a child, always being controlled and told what to do, didn’t fill me with confidence or self-esteem; so it’s not surprising that I never really knew whether I was capable of achieving anything, or doing anything for myself. It took me a long to realise that as the adult,…
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It's a moral issue

Date 20 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
Unfortunately, the chemotherapy has brought about so many other health problems, but in all fairness to my father’s Consultant, he never promised that if he chose chemotherapy he would have the same quality of life as he’d had up to that point. Now my father almost vegetates. He can hardly…
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Accepting

Date 18 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
Given the fact that we are all the product of our individual upbringing, development and experiences, we will feel different about many different issues. Feeling comfortable in our own skin But for us to accept our experiences, we must begin to feel comfortable in our own skin. We must unconditionally…
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Old-fashioned values

Date 17 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
As parents we have many roles, but the most important and fundamental of all our roles is to teach our children about values and respect. I believe the old school values are still the backbone to how we choose to live our lives. Below are the most fundamental ...
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No concrete results

Date 15 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
Unfortunately, my comprehensive food and drink blood test results have now come back, with no real concrete results on what I really deal with, as far as my problems with my health is concerned. The results came back with positive reaction to cows milk, egg yolks and grape (Pinot Gris).…
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Changing our thinking

Date 14 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
I believe in the ‘universal laws,’ so the sayings ‘like attracts like’ and ‘what goes around comes around’ resonate with me greatly. Universal laws are the basic principles that rule every aspect of our lives, and are the ways by which our world and the whole cosmos works. When we…
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Resisting change

Date 12 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
Resistance to change is brought about by our inability to accept that the life we had, isn’t the life we have now. Us resisting, will always be part of the 'universal resistance,' which means the more we resist, the more those circumstances are drawn to us. Change doesn't mean you…
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Yet more change

Date 11 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
I never seem to get past that point where things just seem to tick over normally, without there being a problem to deal with. I am working on change in my life again. As my father battles with osteoporosis and brittle bone, he is becoming less mobile now and beginning…
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Influences on growing up

Date 9 January 2013
Author Ilana Estelle
We’ve all gone through the process of growing up, with some of us enjoying the experience more than others. It is virtually impossible to determine how each child will develop in reality, because so many factors need to be taken into consideration. We need to look at the obvious influences…
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