My childhood left me separate from the world. I was isolated and detached, dealing with something, that left me with no choice but to dig deep into what I later learned was a physical, mental and emotional disability. I needed to be able to function. While my peers were forming friendships, exploring their surroundings and engaging in typical childhood experiences, I was detached, disconnected and separate.

My mental disability

With a mental disability I didn't know about, I spent a lot of my time on my own and eventually found peace in my own inner thoughts.

My challenges to fit in

It turned out that another factor for my separateness was my diverse and unique thought processes. As I failed to interact and play traditional childhood games and continued to struggle to socialise with my peers in school, I became even more isolated and cut off. Where my twin was joining in, I was mostly observing; relying on her to help me become social. On my own, every day was a challenge to fit in, to find common ground with other children, further reinforcing my separation.

While other children in school formed tight-knit friendships and cultivated social skills, I was on my own. Although the separation left me feeling lonely and disconnected from my peers, it did allow me moments of solitude and to get to know me.

Introspection

As a result, I have learned to value my introspection and the depth of my thoughts. I have also come to appreciate the importance of finding my own sense of belonging, rather than relying on fitting into the mould of societal norms.

My journey of self-acceptance has allowed me to let go

Although the journey to self-acceptance and embracing my separateness has not been easy, it has transformed the way I think. It has allowed me to let go of the need for validation and approval from others. I now understand my mental and emotional disability and the challenges I faced as a child.

My blog is about promoting inclusivity

Through my journey, I have developed an understanding for others who may also feel isolated or different. My blog is about promoting inclusivity and creating spaces where everyone feels seen and accepted. I believe that every individual, regardless of their differences, should have the opportunity to thrive and be celebrated for their unique qualities.

My mental disability is a 'gift'

While my mental disability may have initially caused feelings of isolation and disconnect, I have learned to view it as a gift. It has shaped my perspective, nurtured my creativity and allowed me to develop a deep appreciation for introspection and self-reflection. I have learned through writing to embrace my separateness and use it as a source of strength and inspiration.

Working with difference

In sharing my story, I hope to inspire others who may be navigating similar journeys. It is essential to recognise that our differences make us special and that there is beauty in embracing our true selves. By learning to embrace being separate, we can cultivate a sense of belonging, to learn to connect with others who appreciate and celebrate our unique qualities.

It is important to be able to live in a world where everyone feels accepted and valued for who they are. I started the journey to explore what I later learned was a disability, so I could understand, find an acceptance, and so that I could find a place for me.