Covid-19 has brought me closer to my disability more than I ever imagined I would be. I could never have imagined it would, dealing with a disability in a pandemic.

Having cerebral palsy and respiratory disease, means I am high risk for Covid-19 and that is something I have to live with every day. It is a scary thought and I need to make peace with it.

Through my blog The CP Diary, I give my disability a voice and myself new opportunities. Writing has opened up a whole new world. In Covid-19 I struggle to get my head around my disability.

Where Covid-19 continues to highlight my mental weaknesses, my writing brings mental strength and hope.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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4 comments on “Closer to My Disability”

  1. It is way too soon to lift the lockdown in my opinion, especially as we see the virus taking hold. But I do understand that people are suffocating and drowning under this virus financially.

    You're closer to your disability and you may have difficulty emotionally during these times, but you're handling Covid-19 and encouraging us in the process.

    1. Thanks Tim. Yes, it is clear governments are basing their decisions around Covid_19 around the economy, that much is clear. But those unrealistic decisions, trying to sort out the economy before the virus, is causing the virus to fluctuate and rise.

      Until we have a clear indication of how the virus mutates, trying to sort out the economy and trying to resume 'a new normal life' will just bring more cases of the virus.

      I personally believe it's here to stay for the short term at least, but I also think the way it's being handled is adding to the rise we are seeing.

      Whilst governments can be forgiven for not understanding the virus and getting things wrong as a consequence, they cannot be forgiven for their cavalier attitudes and decisions based on their ego.

  2. Yes, I don't blame you for choosing to still stay home, seeing as there are so many people out there who still refuse to follow the rules even though it will save their own lives.

    It just points out how little concern people have for others when it comes down to it. I often wonder how my own daughter is handling all of this, but I don't have a clue, seeing as she doesn't want me to be a part of her life, which is truly sad.

    I keep trying to figure out a way of how to break the ice with her, but I don't have a clue.

    1. Thanks Randy. Yes, we must do what we can to keep us and others safe.

      From what you've said about your daughter, who also has cerebral palsy it won't be easy for her too. Although it's never easy to go back in, given the circumstances, I think it would be a good time to make sure she is okay.

      If you tried, you would at least know her reaction, but if you don't try, you'll never know. It may or not work, but you will have at least done your best to patch things up.

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