Fourteen months in, and I still can't believe my twin is gone. Spiritual healing is slowly bringing meaning and purpose to my experiences, no matter how hard that is. It's all a little bit numbing, I'm on autopilot. I'm not really thinking, engaging. I am distracted. But I know in the longer-term, spirituality will provide a sense of hope through grief.

Spirituality helps us to process our emotions

I'm lucky in that spirituality is helping me to process my emotions. By bringing understanding it will in the longer-term help me find ways to cope with the loss of my twin, the trauma, so that I can engage better.

Spirituality is a powerful tool

Spirituality is a powerful tool for healing around grief, offering us a pathway towards deeper self-awareness, resilience, inner peace and hope. I know it will eventually give me the freedom, a sense of purpose again, as I continue to navigate the complexities of the trauma, of the loss of my twin.

I am lucky I have my blog to share my thoughts and feelings. I hope they help you too.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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