Losing my twin was going to be difficult. A visit to the hygienist after 10 months of mouth pain reminded me just how difficult it was. It's been 13 months. A tiring, difficult day.
Absence 'friends'
As I am now going through the healing process, I am reminded that my twin isn't with me, and being on my own without my twin, made the visit even more difficult, even more poignant.
A poignant time
It was poignant, a reminder that I need and still have a way to go to heal, but the reality is that through the healing process, physically I am without my twin. It's already a difficult world for me to navigate.
I asked my twin before my session started for protection and a white light to help with the process and that worked. The process was made easier, but throughout the day after my visit the tinnitus got worse.
Dental protection measures
I did ask for measures to be put in place for the work to be done manually before my visit and was told that would be okay, after a consult with my hygienist practitioner. When I got to the surgery, my dentist I was told it couldn't be done. I was left with no choice. Now my tinnitus is worse. It's been a difficult day.
Around a twin, perhaps someone else in this situation wouldn't see or think about visiting the hygienist in this way, or perhaps they would? I'm a deep thinker. I think these thought would always be here.