As a child, I had no goals or ambition. Neither were instilled in me and as a result, I didn’t hone-in on them. Instead, I continued to hone-in on a diagnosis, which was never forthcoming. I've had to work everything out. When something begins to work out, it gives you the confidence to believe that you can go on to achieve something more than what others thought you would.

My gut gives me the answers

A diagnosis alone, doesn’t help you understand what exactly you’re dealing with. I don't have ambition even now. It's not how I look at my life. Instead, I use my gut to navigate and that carries me, to find a way through, to do the best that I can. With a disability, my gut has become my voice, my driving force.

Things happen for a reason

But I do believe things happen for a reason. Me not knowing anything about my disability with all of its challenges changed my path, to a path of needing to know, always with honourable intent. If the intent is wrong, success may not follow and if does follow it may be 'hollow success.'

Ambition doesn't always bring success

You don’t have to have ambition to meet your goals, or with success. It’s all to do with intent, and the reasoning behind why you do something. That can be the difference between success and non-success.

The 'knowing universe'

The universe is instrumental, it is aware of our intent. It knows us, it knows our intentions, and will judge on that and that dictates whether something works out or how successful we can be.

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Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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