In the pandemic, I have spent my time trying to motivate, not to do better and putting one foot in front of the other has been difficult. Living with trauma is difficult. It's why I got into writing. Writing has become my passion.
Growth is a process
It’s rare for anyone to be satisfied with where they are, there will always be things we think we could have done better that grate at us, but growth is a process, it’s not a state of being. As we live, we evolve, we change and can always start on the things we fail to do.
My backstory
It irks me that it took me until 46 to learn about a disability I didn’t know I had, 47 when I started The CP Diary. I was 56 when I started writing my first book Cerebral Palsy: 'A Story' and 60 when I finished my third book Survival: The Covid Years, but the flip side is I may not have managed any of what I have achieved, so I need to cut myself some slack on the timing.
I’m in good company, it turns out that:
Stan Lee didn’t write a hit comic until he was almost 39
Toni Morrison wrote her first novel at 40, won a Pulitzer Prize at 56, and won her Nobel Prize at age 62
Julia child didn’t publish her first cookbook until she was 50
Martha Stewart didn’t publish her first cookbook until she was 41
Betty White didn’t become famous until she was 51
Not everyone has their lives figured out
Not everyone has their lives figured out and that's okay. Through my passion, I'm a different person now.
Writing makes me happy, it brings me a lifetime of understanding on years of trauma. It was important I understood my trauma, it was important I understood my life.