Having little to no motivation left me feeling somewhat out of control. That feeling of bewilderment, where everything you have done should fall into place, but never can and leaves you with no direction at all.

From a very early age I was always accepting of my life and that gave me some form of control over my issues. Maybe the pleasing side of me, allowed me to be accepting because I learned not to challenge.

We can't always be in control and that's something I've had to accept. I think that helped me deal with what I had to deal with around my physical issues. Whatever it was, it wasn't going away. It is who I am. I also know that I have to come to terms with other people's attitudes towards what I deal with, as part of my spiritual and emotional growth.

I can only change myself and although others need to do the same for themselves, it's something they have to realise themselves. I have to try to adapt into my life. I understand more than I did before, so that's positive.

Today I feel a little brighter, slightly more motivated, calmer and more relaxed and back in control of my thoughts.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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8 comments on “Learning about acceptance”

  1. Glad to see you're heading in a better and brighter direction. Change always takes some getting used to. It's normal for people to derail from their path a bit, so long as you get back on before you steer too far out.

  2. I have plenty of motivation once I get started on something, but getting started is the problem. I have all these ideas but can't get motivated to accomplish them.

    I know I can control my blood sugar, pain and fatigue better, but just starting on the road is hard for me. I guess I'm not as motivated as I think.

    1. Lisa, you've just said it. I think that what lies behind your lack of motivation are the things you deal with, such as your blood sugar, pain and fatigue.

      Whilst you battle to control all of those, you probably won't have motivation or acceptance.

  3. We have had many conversations about the significance of acceptance. It has saved my life and made a chance for myself to start a new life.

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