Life is challenging right now and I’m struggling to find my footing. I know its autism; tinnitus, societal unrest, the political corruption and mismanagement that's chipping away at my sense of peace. It feels like every news headline throws another curveball, making it even harder to navigate through the daily noise. It's important to talk about these things.

Brexit, the cost of living crisis and Covid-19

Brexit, the cost of living crisis and the financial worries are also a heavy weight. Covid-19 is still a threat. I already deal with anxiety, and these things makes it worse. Politics never seems to quiet down. The constant noise of politics, the stress of every day living, adds more to the stress. These added layers only exacerbate it.

Losing my twin

Losing my twin has also been a heavy blow, compounding the burden. Her passing has left a void that weighs heavily. For six months before her untimely death, the anticipation of losing her, combined with all the other challenges, made everything worse.

I'm sure I'm not alone in these external struggles, that others are going through similar things, that we're all just trying to find our way through this mess. I guess what I am trying to say, is I’m just trying to make sense of a world that feels more overwhelming each day, grappling with loss and the myriad of stressors that often seem relentless.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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