This morning I am feeling brighter, but also feel sad that my health is something that I will always have to deal with. It's something that will always be a part of me, because I was premature and because I have Cerebral Palsy.

This is the part I find so hard. I cruise but then it always feels as though I constantly need to strive and fight to stay well, because my health can turn quickly and when I’m not well it’s a battle to get my health back to anywhere near optimum level.

Usually, when I’m full of cold within hours it’s gone on to my chest, but this time I have managed to avoid it. I have changed one of the supplements I take that I believe has helped. This supplement also helps with reflux. It has changed my life significantly as I can at least function now.

As I see it, the cold itself isn’t the problem. It’s the fact that my immune system is completely compromised around illness and that’s scary. I struggle trying to get my health back to normal. I know my life has never been any different, but obviously the older I am, the longer it takes for my body to heal.

As a child dealing with Cerebral Palsy and illness didn’t make a difference to my recovery. Whatever illness I had, I recovered around the same time as my siblings. Now I am finding that with all I deal with is taking a lot longer for me to recover. I am also a lot more poorly with my illnesses.

I need to stay strong and focused so that when I am ill, I stay as positive as I can. I also need to continue to be as pro-active as I can so that I limit illness. That way I will also feel as though I am more in control of what happens to me.

 

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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6 comments on “My health”

  1. I'm glad you're feeling better physically and emotionally. I never handle illness well. It depresses me when I'm ill cause occasionally I can't function and it makes me ill emotionally.

    I'm used to going all the time, slowing down only to sleep at night. I won't take meds that affect my alertness in the least and my doctors know this too.

    I know with my immune system I am prone to catch stuff easily so I'm more careful than I used to be. I've also noticed I catch stuff easier now than I used to.

    I guess when we age our immune system does get worse. Hang in there. I'm thinking of you.

    1. I totally understand your sentiments Lisa. It's easy to feel depressed, particularly if we struggle with illness a lot.

      I agree that the older we are, the prone to illness we become. That also makes it harder with recovery. Support always helps. Thanks for posting.

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