My Journey to Self-Acceptance

I spent my childhood in quiet reflection, waiting in the wings, trying to work out how I could live authentically and connect with my true self. When your life is shaped by other people's rules, you disconnect from yourself – from your true self, without always realising.

Saying “Yes” for Acceptance

I was a people-pleaser. I found myself saying yes, because I didn’t want to disappoint, and was searching for acceptance, around something I didn't know I had. What I really needed was to say no – and to connect with myself. Along the way I lost pieces of who I was.

The Turning Point: Discovering Spirituality

Everything shifted when I discovered spirituality. It felt like being handed a mirror – a reflection of who I truly was. Through it, I live with truth and integrity, to simplify, to care for myself, to live better, and most importantly, to let go.Writing brings me back to myself, a realisation that has changed everything. 

'I'm lying in 'truth'. Writing is how I free myself – it's how I sit in what's real. But I don't just write for me. Everything you read on the blog, is rooted in the universal coding: truth itself. The world needs to sit with more of that truth. It's survival for society.

Choosing Myself Over Expectations

So, I began the work. I turned my focus to myself to my mental health. I looked at the old patterns and started to make different decisions. Decisions that put me first.

Each choice became a way of choosing myself over others’ expectations.

The Lesson: You’re Allowed to Choose You

And in that space – in the discomfort – I learned the most important lesson of all:

You are allowed to take back control of your life.
You are allowed to choose yourself.

Self-acceptance isn’t being selfish or ignoring others' needs. It’s about soul-love: grounding yourself in self-love and nurturing yourself with self-care.

And that’s where each of our journey should begin and where each of our lives would be better for truth, honesty, resilience, and living authentically.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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