I'm still recovering from dental trauma and tinnitus through the months of trauma of losing my twin and although I'm not struggling as much as I was, I am still struggling.

I still have more treatments to go

I still have more dental treatments to go. My mouth is feeling a little more comfortable, but I’m not where I want and need to be. I am biting chewing and breaking down food better than I was, I have no mouth pain, and I’ve lost a tooth that can’t be replaced, near to the injury point. Luckily, the tooth loss is at the back of the mouth so it’s not visible. I have three more treatments including dental hygiene appointments that should help with my dental trauma.

I hate where I am

I can't believe I've lost my twin. I hate where I am and without her. I'm on my own and alone for the first time. I'm lucky I have my blog that continues to help me to get my thoughts and feelings out there.

I am lonely without her. My blog can't help bring my twin back, but it does help me to talk about how I feel about my life without her.

Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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