It’s been a long journey, a difficult journey, not one that I have relished, but one that I’ve had to endure. Giving up was never on my radar.
Stopping my anxiety waves is my priority, one which I struggle to do. I need to put a rubber stop on sliding further into anxious thinking. With autism, it's the place I automatically go back to and that isn’t great.
My habitual ways of thinking can leave me stuck. Through spiritual growth, through my writing, I know I have flourished and blossomed, but if I wasn’t stuck at 'home' I would probably see that. Easy to lose sight when your life stagnates.
I have been lost in my autistic cavern for years. It's a place I am familiar with, it's my 'go to place.' A place that no one without autism will ever understand. As I continue to work through things, I try to seek out ways, to work through my anxiety, so through my writing, I can continue to be a support to others.
Through my writing, I work with universal truths. The reality, is that unless you’re working with universal truths, everything else isn’t the truth. Through media outlets, it's a lot of what we're seeing right now.
As I continue to write, to put truths out on my blog, it is difficult to hear and read stories contrary to what are universal truths. That causes my anxiety to rise.
