There is lots I have to deal with. I am still dealing with my fall from Monday, nursing myself from that but then having problems with IBS, which brings home just how sensitive and vulnerable I have become to what I deal with on a daily basis.

Some of my problems have been with me for a long time, but living in ignorance and not knowing means I've got to get on with it, not knowing what the long term consequences of what I deal with, will be but I'm not giving up.

A Writing Journal

I have written journals on some of my problems, but as I educate myself more on cerebral palsy and each symptom individually, it doesn’t seem so scary, but put them all together and the bigger picture becomes very scary.

I believe all my symptoms are a by-product of being premature and having cerebral palsy. As I read through more research there seem to be correlations. My conditions include, IBS, reflux, heartburn, bladder problems, and brain fatigue.

I also have problems with my hearing. what I hear doesn't sometimes register. Although I spend my days dealing with problems as they arise, at the back of my mind, I always tell myself tomorrow will be a better day.

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Ilana Estelle is a mental health and wellbeing advocate who combines educational insight with her personal experience of living with physical, mental, and emotional disabilities. She holds diplomas in Counselling, Diet and Nutrition, Nutritional Therapy, Psychotherapy and Counselling, and Stress Management. Through her writing, Ilana supports others in navigating their emotional, mental, and physical health challenges. In addition to writing for The CP Diary, her work has appeared in healthy lifestyle magazines. Ilana is also the author of three books: Cerebral Palsy: A Story – Finding the Calm After the Storm, Spirituality, Healing and Me, and Survival: The Covid Years – Time for Change.

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4 comments on “What I deal with”

  1. I'm so sorry you have to deal with so much. I understand your frustration. I wish there was something I could do or say to make things better for you. Dealing with many problems like we have can make us depressed at times, its only natural to feel that way. But like you say tomorrow will be better. We can always look forward to tomorrow. We need to heal and rest today. I hope your feeling better tomorrow. HUGS, Lisa

  2. Yes I always say that tomorrow will be a better day. Believe that and you will get through it. Be kind to yourself. Have a nice hot bath with bubbles.

    1. Yes of course we need to heal and in many circumstances we do manage to achieve it. It's an observation of what I deal with, but I manage it well with the help of a more balanced lifestyle that seems to work, together with alternative supplements that help.

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