Since the passing of my twin a few days ago, I shall be putting out blogs that support my mental health needs. There may be a few changes to my monthly blogs again, if I struggle to get those out. Or I may jump on to a feature. At this stage, my writing is having to support my mental and emotional needs. I am struggling under the enormity of the loss of my twin.
Getting to grips with Covid
Also, it has taken me 3 years to get to grips with the virus, and for me to comfortably go out without worrying about Covid, I worried about dying from Covid. For 3 years, I worried about catching the virus. For 3 years I worried about what would happen if I caught Covid. For 3 years, I also worried about how I would cope, if I were to catch the virus. Catching Covid, helped me park the dying bit. But one size doesn’t fit all.
Reading between the lines
The more of The CP Diary blog you read, the more you'll start to read between the lines, the more you'll see and understand, that life away from my pen and paper, is rather quite difficult. But choosing to read between the lines is good, because when you do, you're looking at the bigger picture, through any situation and that will give you the answers you need.
My writing supports my autism
When it comes to worries, my worries are just as valid as the next person's. As I continue to write that helps my autism and my mental health. Autism doesn’t lend itself to anything. I have to continually co-manage it, so that things don't become big and scary. That is where my writing comes in.
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I often find myself hoping my family would come back to life, if only for a moment, as their absence has been incredibly painful.
Thankfully, your writings stood beside me, spiritually, during the most difficult times in my life.
Now your readers are standing beside you and the universe is holding you and your sister in its hands.
Thanks Tim. Any passing is incredibly difficult, primarily because we are reminded our loved ones lived and because they are no longer with us.
I think if more of us understood death, we wouldn't see a loved ones passing as final; instead their passing would be an extension of the life they'd lived and we'd be comforted by that.
For many, the concept of death is final and hard to comprehend and accept. Any absence is final and painful. If more of us understood death more, we would learn to cherish our lives more.
We don't think about death until we come to lose a loved one.