I resonate with the lyrics of Eric Clapton's 'Tears in Heaven' song – slowly learning to move forward with my life without my twin. I have recently moved home and am adapting to a new environment. Moving to a new house, especially in a quieter setting, is a significant change for me. I am more at home here.
Embracing the Different Pace of Life
In moving house, I realise that it’s also a unique opportunity to unwind and reconnect with myself. I’m choosing to look at things differently. I can now have solace in the peace and quiet of my new environment, cherishing moments of quiet contemplation.
Connecting with myself
After losing my twin, I knew it was time to move, although I was aware that relocating would stir up a mix of emotions. Throughout the initial process of grief I have felt alone, but it has also been liberating being able to connect with myself. As someone with autism on the spectrum, it can be all too easy to disconnect, especially when you're already dealing with mental health.
Exploring My Environment
I’ve started exploring my surroundings more and getting out of the house has made a significant difference. Having moved to a village, I already feel a sense of belonging that I've never experienced before. I hope that this sense of belonging will deepen over time. I feel more grounded in this new chapter of my life, confident that I’ve made the right decision and I genuinely love my new surroundings and outlook.
Nooks and Crannies
I’ve started to walk around the village, discovering its nooks and crannies, including the charming village church. Each little corner of the village holds its own unique appeal. Listening to nature and soaking in the ambiance of my new surroundings, especially the village pub, which is at the hub of community life is really comforting. My new environment is a refreshing contrast of my past, allowing me to slow down and appreciate the beauty around me.
As I continue to settle in, I am starting to feel a growing sense of purpose and hope – that this village can become a significant part of my story. I have more confidence. The journey may be just beginning, but for the first time, I feel at peace.
Conclusion
This transition offers me a precious chance to have peace in solitude. I need to continue to remind myself that adjustment through loss takes time and that it’s perfectly okay to take things one day at a time.