Life After Loss: Living Without My Twin

Date 16 April 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
"I’ve only ever known my life as a twin. A twin-set. From birth, everything I knew and understood about life came through the lens of being one half of a whole. It shaped how I saw myself, how I moved through the world, and ...
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Navigating Life on the Spectrum

Date 14 April 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
I recently came across an article in my 'author magazine' where another author discussed writing with ADHD and how, despite growing awareness, there are still many who question whether it's real, or legitimate, and the article ...
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Living with Guilt Without the Picture

Date 11 April 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Growing up with something I didn’t know I had, meant I carried guilt, guilt that had no where to go. Without knowing the full picture, I am unpacking the guilt, as it's not my guilt to carry. With no accountability or ...
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Disabled, Not Broken

Date 8 April 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Living Life on 'My' Terms, Setting Boundaries and Finding Peace “No matter what was thrown at me, I never saw myself as a casualty of others' non-healing. I knew who I was from an early age, I was okay with me. Truthfully ...
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Loss of a Twin: When Half of You is Gone

Date 1 April 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
The thing about being a twin, or part of any set means that you will always see yourself and your life that way. Since my twin passed two years ago, life is difficult and it is different now. Being part of a twin shaped my ...
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Coping With Soul Loss When You Can't Feel

Date 30 March 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Grieving a Twin Soul when you have Emotional Impairment is difficult – it's disorienting. Grief, which is often described as waves of sadness that comes and go is difficult. For some, it is an emotion that rises and falls ...
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How Mental Health Became My Lifeline

Date 28 March 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
As a child, I didn’t realise I was carrying the weight of trauma while trying to navigate a world unaware of the struggles I faced – struggles I would later come to understand were shaped by a disability. What I had wrong with ...
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The CP Diary: A Journey of Reflection, Growth and Clarity

Date 25 March 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
The CP Diary offers honest, reliable reflection. It understands life’s complexities, recognising the many factors that shape our experiences. While it doesn’t claim to have all the answers, it does help to make sense of the things ...
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Finding Acceptance in a Difficult Life

Date 21 March 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
As I continue to reflect on my personal journey, acceptance is about finding a deeper understanding of my experiences and how those experiences have shaped me and coming to terms with what's been done. As I ...
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Trusting the Journey

Date 18 March 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
My Self-affirmation Poem "I need to remind myself that things will work out okay,To understand that not every ripple I encounter means a storm is coming.To trust the universe has my back. To accept that living life in the ...
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The WEIGHT of Knowing

Date 15 March 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
"I sit with the weight of my life, the quiet realisation that I'm on my own, but not by my choice. There’s something about my looking back, having to trace the steps of my journey, that feels both difficult and ground. From ...
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Autism, Grief, Change and Twin Loss

Date 13 March 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Life has a way of shifting beneath us when we least expect it. Losing my twin is not just about her absence; it's about losing a reflection of myself, a connection that always existed, now gone. It has altered the very foundation ...
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