How A Late Diagnosis Uncovered a Hidden Grief

Date 11 July 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
The CP Diary is mired in truth — not just my truth, not just my personal truth but a truth others can see themselves in. It invites anyone to own and accept their truths through the lens of my lived experiences. My writing is ...
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Writing from the Gut: How I Process Life through Emotion

Date 6 July 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
How I Process Life Through Emotion and Reflection Everything I write comes from my gut instinct. I don’t plan it. I don’t dress it up. I let the words, the thoughts, the emotions, the experiences rise – I listen carefully and quietly ...
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Living Without My Twin: Grief and the Loneliness That Lingers

Date 2 July 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
I'm writing this like it happened yesterday. Losing my twin is the hardest thing I've had to go through. I wasn't ready to lose her. If you're lucky enough to go through the ageing process, it's a difficult journey to fully ...
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Finding My Voice With Cerebral Palsy and Autism

Date 27 June 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
For decades, I didn’t have the words to describe the way I experienced the world. I just knew I was and felt different – I was tuned into a frequency other people didn't want to hear. I have carried far too much pain. Cerebral Palsy ...
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Why I Talk About Mental Health (Even When It's Uncomfortable)

Date 25 June 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Talking about mental health still makes people uncomfortable. I’ve seen it – the sideways glances, the quiet pauses in conversations, followed by quick subject changes. And to be honest, sometimes it makes ...
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My Twin, My Other Half: A Journey Through Grief

Date 21 June 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Realising the Weight of Life Without Her I was mentally stronger with my twin. Without her, I am beginning to realise just how difficult life after losing a twin is. I never thought I'd be without her, never imagined this stage ...
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Walking with Intention

Date 16 June 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
Sir David Attenborough's remind us to care for the Earth In a world also increasingly hungry for hope, some individuals stand out – not for loud gestures or grandeur, but for the quiet, steadfast way they guide us back to ...
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Fragments of Me

Date 13 June 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
I Built A Version Of Myself That Wasn't True When you grow up with an undiagnosed disability to you, not knowing the truth about yourself, you build your identity around fragments. I spent years building up the wrong ...
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Grief Doesn't End: How Others' Choices Leave Lasting Marks

Date 10 June 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
"Understanding how the decisions of others shape our emotional landscape long after the moment they pass" Since my twin died, I’ve been stuck in a constant state of fight and flight. Her absence isn’t something I grapple with ...
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Informed by Study, Shaped by Experience, Shared with Integrity

Date 7 June 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
The CP Diary: Emotional Health, Spiritual Growth, and Holistic Wellbeing When I began The CP Diary, it was never with the intention of becoming an authority – it was simply my way of making sense of my life with a disability ...
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The Silence That Shaped Me

Date 6 June 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
"Living with a Disability I Didn't Know I Had and Reclaiming My Voice" Growing up without knowing I had a physical, mental, and emotional disability still haunts me. For decades, it sent an unspoken message that my ...
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Living With Depression and Twin Loss

Date 2 June 2025
Author Ilana Estelle
On Depression, loss and learning to move forward alone" For 15 years I’ve been writing about mental health from the outside – strategies, wellness, insights. But I never wrote about depression, because I didn’t ...
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